I can say I tried my best. Now it’s all up to her and the ball is in her park. Possibly for good. And I won’t even bother turning back and leave sweets behind me unless she decides to genuinely follow and pull me back with her own two hands.
Either way, the weight of my heart has lessened and I’m free again. I want nothing to do with anyone else this year unless they are interested in the first place or want to playfully date. I was right to believe this was too good to be true and I was also right to install hope in myself that I will find someone better than her if someone as amazing as her exists in my small world.